My anxiety level is in all time high. I've been palpitating and crying since yesterday. I'm sad. I'm extremely sad. This was brought upon by a mistake I made yesterday. I should have not done it. I knew that I was going to get hurt, but I still gave it a go. I didn't know I will be this hurt though.
My world crumbled, and I tell you, I don't crumble easily when it comes to those things. My only source of happiness fucked me up. You know what they say, the thing that makes you the happiest is the thing that can make you the loneliest.
This then triggered lots of pent up emotions, I think. I have been too anxious about something (I have always blogged about how scared I am about this 'thing' that is coming up in my life, remember?) but now it has multiplied a billionfold. I feel like I'm going to die.
I'm really tired of feeling like this. I can't even calm myself down. I wish I had the guts to tell someone what's going on in my life without being vague.
: There goes the fear - Doves
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