off the rail

Back in high school, our English class teacher Ms. H asked us to write an essay on our future profession and present it in front of the class. I remember writing mine in my room while being surrounded by Candy magazines (will probably discuss why soon), feeling totally inspired. Since then I knew that I want to work in the publishing industry and be an editor-in-chief of a teen magazine.

I have always knew what I wanted. I have goals and plans in bullet form, timeframe and steps included. But after I quit my job as a Managing Editor, I felt like I was off the rail.

Quitting the job is probably one of the toughest decision I had to do this year. It is probably the closest thing I had to a breakup. But it was inevitable if I need to grow as a person, and I chose growth over my 'first love', so here I am now.

Still, I consider myself blessed because I have experienced so many things over a year and a month, whether it was good or bad. Those experiences made me tougher and wiser. I have also unleashed my potentials and found out my other weaknesses. It was a long and informative ride, but unfortunately, things are not as worthy anymore. I have to consider many factors and besides, I have other and bigger dreams to fulfill.

I currently live by the day, rebuilding my plans slowly. As a Communication Arts graduate, I have so many fields to choose from and that is really overwhelming. I have to admit that I am scared of trying out a new field because a). It is hard to start all over again; b). I might not be good at it. Yes, I know I sound pessimistic but I am just being real, you know?

I have surrendered to God the wheel of my life, and I know that everything happens for a reason. I am working hard to show Him that I am very much grateful of these blessings He has given me.

As the saying goes, 'when life gives you lemons, make a lemonade'. I say, enjoy the lemonade whilst you wait for the next harvest season. Who knows, life might give you grapes to be wine next time.

: Lessons Learned - Matt & Kim